There I said it. Phew! I don’t think it was a great mystery, but now it is out in the open. I don’t even feel bad saying it because I know that my husband feels the exact same way.
This weekend we were at a pig roast enjoying a little family time together. Our daughter sat on my husband’s lap & the two of them were talking and laughing with each other. They were amazing to watch. They were so real, so happy. My husband wrapped his arms tightly around our child and gave her a kiss. He looked up at me and said, “I love our daughter. She is just awesome.” This made me smile. He then looked at her & told her, “I love you more than anything in the world. I love you more than football & Doritos. I love you more than beer & Dukey (our dog). I even love you more than mama & she loves you more than me too.”
This statement did not make me flinch, not even a little bit, because I knew it to be true. He went on to say, if I were ever stuck in a predicament where him & Mai were hanging from the edge of a cliff and I could only save one, he would expect that I would let him go. I am not planning on taking my family to the edge of a cliff anytime soon, but I did agree. “It’s been real. We had a good run, hon.” I joked as I pretended to let him go.
It is a funny thing. When you fall in love, you never think that it will be possible to be more in love than you are with that person. I adore my husband. We have our ups & downs just like any couple, but I could not picture myself growing old with anyone else. When we got married, I was positive that I would never love another human being as much as him. It was not possible.
I remember a friend of mine telling me after she had her daughter, “You think you love your husband? Wait til you have kids. He ain’t shit.” Pardon my language, I am quoting her verbatim. I laughed at her statement. What a funny thing to say. That is crazy.
It doesn’t seem quite as crazy anymore. It is difficult to describe the feelings that you have for your child. It is as if your heart was made just for them. Nothing in the world is more important, work, friends, even you take a back seat to your child. I would gladly sacrifice myself for my child, so while my husband is my soul mate, my daughter is the love of my life.